I used to give myself and my life grades for the year. I suppose that I have always had a type A personality that required me to assess my daily achievements and mistakes. Somehow after Covid I found myself feeling more and more lucky just to still be alive. Somehow I saw the silliness of always striving to do better and better. The fact that I am here in a nice house with people that I love and not too many health issues seems to be good enough.
I do my best each day to be a nice person. Sometimes I don’t do too well at that but I have learned how to forgive myself and start over again on a new day. I remind myself constantly that I am not living in a war torn country like Ukraine or Gaza or Israel or places in Africa. Nobody forces me to act or think a certain way, so I get by with my own ideas and beliefs. I remind myself of my mother’s daily admonition that I should be thankful for a warm dry place to sleep at night and the fact that I never have to miss a meal. In so many ways I am richer than the vast majority of people who inhabit the earth.
We Americans complain a great deal when most of us should simply be grateful for the bounty that we often take for granted. I haven’t seen too many airports that are deserted or restaurants with no customers. I have to wait in a line of cars to get my fix at Starbuck’s and the stores have been packed with people purchasing gifts for Christmas.
I know that we do have people who are suffering in our midst that we rarely encounter. Many are without homes or jobs or good health. Some are refugees from horrific situations. Others work hard and barely make it from day to day. We tend not to notice them that much in all of our bickering over rising prices that may cause us to have to cut out some luxury that we really do not need.
I had a busted ankle at the end of this year, but I got fabulous care for under a hundred dollars. My husband had a scare with his heart that cost us less than a weekend vacation at a nice hotel. We are fortunate to live near a world class medical center that is only a few minutes away from our home. So far doctors have been able to keep the two of us going along with my ninety five year old father-in-law who almost died twice a couple of years ago and made it through with the expert care of doctors and nurses.
There is much about the world and my country that worries me, but on the whole my greater concern is for others. I am doing fine, but my heart aches for those who yearn for the kind of life that I so often take for granted. Sure I have worked hard, but I have also had the opportunities to use my talents and my efforts to build a great life, while others in the world have not had my advantages. some of that is only due to my birth.
Like the kings of old I got lucky in who my parents were and the place where I lived. Simply by being born the daughter of Jack and Ellen in the United States of America I was free to be whoever I wished to be. I was able to pay for an advanced education. There were jobs available to me. I married a man who treats me as his equal. I live around good people who wish the best for me. Such is not the case for everyone, especially women and those deemed to be different or undesirable.
So as the new year beckons I can only feel a sense of good fortune and gratefulness. Nonetheless I feel obligated to continue to work on the problems of the world. I know that if we pretend that all is well it would be a terrible mistake. I can’t get by with passing on problems to the younger generation. It is my duty to work on their behalf even as I grow older. We have issues that cannot be ignored. We have to determine how to save our planet and its people from droughts and floods and deadly storms and fires. We have to demonstrate love and compassion for all people on this earth, not only those just like we are. There are evil situations that must be addressed, wars that need to end. Hunger and want are as prevalent today as they ever have been. We cannot turn away pretending that we cannot see.
I am ready to tackle the task of teaching the young. I’m ready to make whatever sacrifices are needed to level the playing field of the world. As long as I am breathing I am ready for the challenges that face us.
A new year is coming. I hope it will be great. May there be peace and love in abundance in 2024. Happy New Year!