All It Takes Is A Little Love

A Chinese proverb tells us that the motions of a butterfly flapping its wings can be felt on the other side of the world. Likewise a disaster in one place in the world will ultimately impact faraway lands. We sometimes like to think that the only arena in which our actions have any impact is in our own space. In truth there is a ripple effect regarding how we respond to virtually everything. Each of us is continually contributing to the whole. Each of us matters. When all of the many lives on the earth are taken together we should be able to see that we can never really isolate ourselves entirely from the challenges that others face. Even a hermit must interface with the world from time to time. What we find when we leave the confines of our homes is an interdependency with each other that we may not like, but is real. 

We hear a great deal these days about influencers who use social media to spread their thoughts or creativity or political clout. We tend to believe that only the rich and famous have the power to begin movements that either make a difference or create chaos, but it is also true that one unknown person at a time making choices is also critical in either changing the world or adhering to the status quo. 

The butterfly effect tells us that each individual will feel the impact of a deadly flood in Libya even though we may not even know where that place is on a map. An earthquake in Morocco may seem to have little to do with our own lives but we will subtly feel the resonance of that tragedy as well. Whether it be a political, religious or media response to such events we find ourselves becoming involved. We may simply feel sorrow for the poor souls or we may generously contribute to sending aid the the victims. We may begin to discuss the scientific or human cost of such events. Such discussions may find their way into our educational or political discourse. We may learn of the economic impact of a disaster through an increase in our taxes or the temporary loss of certain products produced in the devasted area. To a lesser or greater extend all of us are affected when some of us endure traumatic events. 

The same is true of good fortune. It may seems contrary to believe that happiness and peace is capable of trickling down on all of us, but think of times in our lives when it just felt really good and safe. Usually such eras were marked by a transactional upturn in good fortune for the majority of the world. On the other hand there were few people who were not emotionally moved by the events of September 11, 2001

There is almost always some person, some city, some state or country that is undergoing hard times. When the number of such places remains low we all tend to feel more comfortable with our lives. We might find that the oranges from Florida cost more because of ruined crops after a freeze there. When heat and drought are plaguing most of the world our sense of ill ease is far more noticeable. 

I suppose that my point is that it would be unwise to simply ignore events that seem to be irrelevant. As a community of humans we should all be concerned that thousands died in Libya from a damn that burst during two days of torrential rain. We have to ask ourselves how each of us is contributing to the devastating effects of climate change. Then we have to determine what steps we might take to mitigate the waste and misuse of our resources that is causing more and more such disasters. Like butterflies we have the power to one by one make a difference. 

I always hark back to a friend who once commented that if each person who attends a concert or athletic event would donate one dollar to be used to help others, we would be making an incredible difference all over the world. We could improve schools, support research, provide food and shelter, send deserving young people to college. It’s a simple idea that uses the power of the butterfly principle. We really do not need to bankrupt ourselves to begin assisting people and programs in dramatic ways. 

I once sponsored a group of incredibly thoughtful high school students who wanted to really make a difference in the world. They formed a club whose sole purpose was to find ways to raise funds that might then be sent to individuals and causes needing help. With hard work and interesting ideas they turned the school year and their meetings into continual fundraisers. In the process they were able to create two college scholarships, send supplies to Haiti after the earthquakes there, provide medical supplies for a children’s home, purchase Christmas gifts for families enduring economic hardship, create an appreciation dinner for local firefighters, sponsor a community clean up, purchase classroom books for teachers. All of this happened during a single school year and each of the students involved came from families with low incomes. Their impact was incredibly strong because they believed that individual actions mattered. Instead of crying or complaining about the unfairness that seems to stalk so many of the world’s people, they rolled up their sleeves and gave of their talents and limited means and brought hope and joy to many corners of the world. 

We are a world of beautiful butterflies, diverse in our abilities and philosophies but always the most beautiful when we flap the colors of our wings in unison for a worthy cause. Of late we seem to be more concerned with grumbling than finding ways to be a positive force. There is so much to be done that it seems quite wasteful to waste our efforts on sparring with each other. It’s time that we curb our tribal instincts that are driving us to partake in circular battles and begin healing the world around us rather than fighting over our differences. We can make the flapping of our wings a positive force or we can create chaos by unwittingly believing that nothing matters but our own concerns. It is long past time to put our power together to bring comfort and joy to all parts of the world.  

It was early summer and I had flown to Dallas with a student who was a finalist in a contest called The Great Debate. His counselor, his mother and I were there to cheer for him. If he won he would receive a hefty check that he might apply to the cost of college in the near future. He was well prepared but a bit nervous. His opponent was representing an exclusive private high school. The battle seemed to be one between David and Goliath, but my student was determined to give it his best. He had wisely decided to wear a suit and tie to indicate his respect for the process. His opponent had come in jeans and a t-shirt, but his casual confidence took a downward turn when his competition walked in resembling a Harvard trained lawyer. My student cast a spell on the room as he entered with his head held high. Nobody would know that he lived in the shadow of downtown Houston in a tiny home or that he traveled for miles each day to attend a public charter school designed to lift up young people who might otherwise be lost in mega high schools located in rough areas of Houston. 

Soon the two young men were sparring, each holding his own. My student seemed relaxed and confident as he stated his points and factually rebutted the issues that his opponent set forth. Of course I favored the young man that I had accompanied to the event, but I worried that the elite panel of judges might not see him with the same affirmation that I felt for him. It would be anyone’s guess as to how they would ultimately rule. 

As we waited for the results the two debaters warmly congratulated each other. They earned each other’s sincere respect in a battle of young men from two very different worlds. It was a valuable learning experience for both of them. The feeling was that both had already won even though only one would walk away with a check. 

There was a nervous moment of chatter as the judges filed back inside. They delayed the final announcement of the winner by critiquing the performance of each of the young men. It was obvious that choosing a single champion had been incredibly difficult. Finally the words that we had hoped to hear came from the head of the committee. My student had won. His performance had been outstanding in every regard. 

We were celebrating while photographers from newspapers and television stations pointed their lenses at my student. He handled the attention with humility and joy. I was quite proud of him in that moment and looked forward to celebrating with him and the rest of our entourage. Suddenly the joyfulness of the occasion was interrupted by a breathless by stander who asked if we had heard that Michael Jackson had died. 

We were all stunned. Everyone in our group had been a fan of the super star. We knew that he was rehearsing for a world tour which was schedule to launch that summer. He was only fifty years old so it seemed unreal that he had died so young. Somehow MJ’s death overtook the rest of our conversation that day. My student more than anyone became quite philosophical about what it is like to be black in America and noted the irony that even a black man with great wealth suffered from the same kind of health issues that plague the African American community. It was a point he had hammered home in defense of a national healthcare program in the debate that he had just won. 

We flew home less animated than we had earlier been. Somehow Michael Jackson’s death had meaning for each of us beyond just loving his music and his talent. For me it was sadness for a young man who had struggled to find his true identity in a world that all to often attempts to judge with great prejudice. I believed MJ to be a sensitive soul. The songs that he wrote were like entries in a very personal diary. I would listen to his music for days afterward, often shedding tears for the musical genius that we had lost. I also believed that he was finally at peace, something that had continued to elude him in his quest for perfection and pleasing the world. 

For my birthday this year my husband gave me tickets to two events. The first was a Sting concert and the second was to a musical called MJ. Both brought back memories of a time when I was a young and vibrant woman in my thirties who never thought far enough ahead to see myself at the age of seventy five. Sting and Michael Jackson had been musical idols to me. I heard the profundity of their music and lyrics  and celebrated their exceptional talents. It was a great gift to be reminded of the joy that both of them had given me, but it was the story of Michael Jackson that burrowed into my heart.

MJ is a musical featuring many of Michael Jackson’s greatest songs. It begins in a rehearsal room where Jackson is preparing for a world tour. A sidebar involves a filmmaker from MTV who is trying to get a very personal story about the King of Pop. Jackson agrees to allow her to film the rehearsing but only for two days. He tells her that the story can only be about his music and she agrees. The woman interviewing him soon learns how difficult Jackson’s life has been. She sees that he had no childhood under the domineering determination of his father to earn fame for his talented children. Each song and dance seems to be a way for Jackson to explain to the world who he is and why he is the way he is. 

The woman finds Michael to be a gentle soul who drives himself and others to perfection. He has a vision of how music should be choreographed and heard. It all rolls around inside his head to the extent that he is never able to turn off his thoughts, not even when he is exhausted and still unable to sleep. 

MJ is poignant, beautiful and stunning. It builds to a crescendo that brings the audience to its feet in an emotional moment in which everyone shares their love for Michael Jackson and his music. There are tears and joyful shouts. Hands are clapping and waving and people are singing along. Everyone is young again and remembering how they felt when the times appeared to be so innocent. The cast has transformed us and created a show that would no doubt make Michael Jackson quite proud. They capture MJ’s humanity, his love, and his warning to us that change only comes when we look into the mirror and begin with ourselves. 

Last school year my grandson experienced a terror that is plaguing our schools. On what had seemed to be a normal day, a sudden announcement changed everything. The word was that an armed man was on campus. Students and teachers were commanded to go into lockdown mode.

Unfortunately the students were in the middle of a passing period when the notification occurred. They had to scurry quickly to their classes while the teachers took a head count of who was present and who was missing. My grandson had already arrived at his science class so the teacher instructed him and other students to move from the lecture area into the far reaches of the laboratory. Meanwhile she herded any stray students she was able to find into the safety of her protection. Soon the doors to the classroom as well as the door to the lab were locked and the students helped move heavy furniture to shore up the strength of the door. Then they all gathered in a windowless area and sat in silence while wondering what was happening outside. 

My grandson, like most of his classmates, was quietly sending texts to his parents alerting them to what was happening. He told them that he loved them and admitted to being terrified that he might never see them again. It was a tense time when minutes felt like hours. Eventually the danger passed. An announcement proclaimed that it had all been a hoax from a phone call. Later the school would determine that a student who had created the furor would be expelled and arrested for his dangerous prank. 

After the event the students and teachers received updated training. They may no longer hold open doors for others, even if they know that person. Backpacks are now banned. Doors have to be closed and locked except during passing periods. There is an unspoken tension that lurks over the once happy days of being young. Many students are feeling anxious and depressed that their world feels so dangerous. 

It was with a kind of personal interest that I recently read an article in the Washington Post reporting that hundreds of active shooter calls have been made to schools and police departments in literally every state in the nation. Only later do the officials learn that the calls were sent as a hoax. In the most egregious cases the calls are untraceable and often come from someone with the same voice. Technology has allowed this kind of thing to happen more and more often leaving law enforcement frazzled and schools feeling ever more vulnerable. While much work and coordination is being done to determine who is behind these fake emergencies, little progress has been made. In the meantime every one of them has to be taken seriously lest the one that is ignored proves to be the one that is real. 

It breaks my heart to think of the fear that lurks in the back of the minds of everyone involved with our nation’s schools. Students most assuredly are watching for signs of trouble. Teachers are no doubt having nightmares and anxiety attacks as they consider what they should do in the event a real shooting event. Administrators and police want to make our schools safe places where everyone knows that they are protected. Sadly hoax shooter calls only increase the concerns that now stalk our schools. 

I don’t think that the dysfunction of our government is helping. When young people observe that the supposed adults in the room are unwilling to set aside their differences to find solutions to the many problems that we face they become disillusioned and sad. Right now it feels as though we are undergoing a national divorce between two political philosophies that seem unable to do the right thing for the citizens rather than proving points and advocating vindictive retaliation. Honesty and cooperation have taken a back seat to stubborn allegiance to platforms and that will get them reelected. Our nation feels broken and it is our young people who are bearing the brunt of our divisions. 

I have known people who reached a point of no return in their marriages. Divorce was the best way to move forward. In the best of these situations the children were spared the bickering. With great concern for the children the estranged adults were willing to share and compromise. They did not spread vile stories about each other to their children. They encouraged the kids to be happy with both of them but in different settings. The youngsters felt save and loved. They were able to adjust to the new reality.

In the worst cases the parents vie for the affection of the children. They reveal deeply disturbing stories about one another to little ones who can’t quite understand the issues. They force children to choose between the two of them. They plant vile ideas in their minds. Those children are victims. They are harmed psychologically in ways from which they may never recover without intense therapy. This is how I see the political landscape in out country today. This is why our young men and woman have lost faith in us. It is a tragedy of epic proportions because it never had to happen. 

I have said it before and I will continue saying it. Being tribal is destructive. Our government was designed to only function smoothly when opposing points of view found ways to compromise for the good of all, not a particular segment of the populace. The tragic split in our nation during the Civil War pitted brother against brother in the most horrific clash. I fear that we are close to that when we have a presidential candidate swearing retribution and refusing to accept the results of an election. In fact those same people are already setting up a scenario for the next presidential election that will be lose/lose for every American citizen. We have to stop voting for people who stoke anger and violence. We have to become civil again. Our children want us to stop fighting. They want to feel safe again and we have much to do to accomplish that. Think of this before you give someone your vote. It counts more than ever. 

It begins when we refuse to listen to each other, when we no longer make efforts to understand each other. We takes sides, separate into groups, then tribes. If we allow our grievances to simply fester and grow we are soon lobbing deadly rockets at one another either figuratively or literally. We become living representatives of the story of Cain and Abel. Anger and jealousies overcome the rational and kind aspects of our human natures. We turn away from any possibility of seeing each other as individuals and adopt a gang mentality. It becomes us against them. The animal instincts to survive, to carry out our grievances take over our ability to think about the damage we are doing. Only after the worst of our natures wreak destruction and death over innocents do we humans end our warlike behavior and attempt to restore peace and harmony in our world. Sometimes that takes a life time or hundreds of years. 

The anger that is seething in our midst has been in full view of late. On a personal level we witness family and friendships breaking apart over differences in beliefs. Worldwide hatreds are fueling wars. In my own nation I have watched our democratic institutions become paralyzed with partisan battles that are often based on propagandized lies. We were not even able to pause long enough to handle a pandemic with compassion and sacrifice for the needs of the sick and dying. Instead we broke into camps and relied on fear and innuendo to guide us through the difficult times. Our once cooperative spirits were squelched by troublemakers who made our medical communities the enemy. False prophets turned religion into a political football. Dishonest journalists spread lies and propaganda. We ultimately endured and then overcame the worst of the virus, but the battle lines that we drew during our ordeal became more pronounced than ever. Our thinking became rigid, angry and unwilling to consider working together for a common good. 

We humans are in trouble right now. We can’t simply ignore what is happening nor can we continue to act as though we are nameless members of tribal hordes intent on destroying our real or imagined enemies. We are at a stage of seeing peacemakers as weak and those who arouse the rabble to anger as great leaders. To use a very tired phrase the inmates are running the asylum. Strongmen across the globe are inciting riots and war. They are tearing institutions apart and stoking fear and anger. They masquerade as people who care when the reality is that they only seek power for themselves. 

Here in the United States of America we are at a crossroad. We are only inches away from a collapse of our ability to govern in a way that honors each person’s unalienable rights. We have lost the ability to distinguish between those who truly love this country and its people and those who bow to tyrants whose only goal is to seize power and titles for themselves. We are a nation of many races, ethnicities, religious beliefs, sexual orientations, personalities. There should be room for all of us. We should be able to live our lives without fear that one or another group will impede our freedoms. Our government should not be a religious enforcer. We have seen what happens when religious norms for a single group become the rules for all. We should not have to look or act a certain way nor should we hide truths about the history of humankind and our own missteps as a nation. When we live in the darkness of ignorance we only repeat the mistakes of the past. 

If we blindly follow one person, one group or use one media outlet to gather information we are doomed to living inside a circular argument that never sets us free. We must be willing to study different philosophies and ideas. Learning about them does not mean that we must adhere to them. It is instead a way of enlightenment that allows us to cull through the chaff that often hides both the problems and their solutions. It’s not only possible but probable that even a very good and generous leader will have greatness and mistaken flaws at one and the same time. There is no such thing as a perfect human being, but some among us are more honorable than others. 

Might does not always make right. Doing things the way they have always been done is not always the correct pathway. If we humans are to evolve and progress even in tiny increments we must be open to an alliance not with a single group but with the greatest ideas and ideals of human imagination. At the same time we must always bear in mind that some of the things that we fight so hard to dismiss are of very little consequence. Who someone chooses to love should not be of any concern to us. Love is love and we should celebrate it. How a person decides to dress or grow their hair does not hurt anyone. Each woman knows how many children she is able and willing to have. 

We all spill the same blood. Our bodies mostly work the same way. All physical characteristics are superficial. We grow up in our respective homes being taught lessons in how to live. We may be eating different foods, speaking different languages or believing different things. No one way should be deemed better than others. The rich man is not more important than the man who tends his lawn. The child born to a king is no more wonderful than the one who arrives on this earth in poverty. It’s well past time for us to learn from history that categorizing and judging the worth of individuals based on human made criteria is wrong. It’s well past time for learning how to live in harmony, respect and understanding. If we continue down the dangerous path of unquestioned allegiance to any person or belief we will continue to fight among ourselves and people will needlessly suffer. Let’s step out of tribal echo chambers before we mindlessly destroy the good things we have built together. Our grievances begin so innocently but too often they end with war. Let’s stop that before it is too late.    

I am trying to compose myself after viewing photos and videos from mass shootings that were released last week by the Washington Post. I am a visual person who has to see things with my own eyes to fully understand their impact. It was brutally difficult to keep my eyes on the actual horror of what happened to innocents in massacres inside classrooms, synagogues, movie theaters, and outdoor concerts. We can read the words that describe such horrors and never fully feel the impact of terror reeked upon those present in such terrible moments. It’s too easy to quickly move on and pretend that there is nothing we can do to stop the senseless murder that plagues our nation like no other place on earth. It is important that we get a visceral sense of what really happens when a shooter armed with a high powered weapon takes out his anger on people that he does not even know. If such an incident is only a concept rather than a reality it is easier to be content with doing nothing of significance to stop it from happening again. When we actually witness the horror with our own eyes our perspectives are nevermore the same.

I am a gentle soul. I try not to hurt anyone even with my words. Most of us are like that. We cannot fully imagine horrific scenes because it never occurs to us to be intent on reeking violence on anyone. Those of us who think of the injured and their families after a mass shooting sincerely grieve for a time and we even pray for peace and comfort. Nonetheless we are not insistent enough to bring about meaningful legislation and enforcement that will finally bring the changes that we so obviously need. We only feel more and more helpless as we watch the processes of violence and condolence being repeated again and again. Nothing ever changes. 

We will be gathering with friends and family this week to give thanks for our good fortune. The launch of another holiday season will begin. We won’t want to tarnish our happiness with negative thoughts, so little will be mentioned about the problem with gun violence that is all too prevalent in our nation. Few of us feel totally safe anymore and that is not because of any one person who is supposed to be in charge. It is because of our own reluctance to do the kinds of things that we know we must do. It is long past time to control the types of guns that are produced and sold in our country. Arguing that we somehow have a right to weapons that were never intended to be used by private citizens is a specious claim. Allowing them to stay in circulation because there are already too many of them in homes across America is not a good reason to continue to do nothing. We as a nation have to decide whether or not we want to continue living with the continued threat of mass shootings. 

It is time for a national therapy session in which we honestly consider what our obsession with guns has done. Most of us have been touched by mass shootings that were close to home. I live only miles away from a high school where a student took out his warped feelings on classmates and teachers. A former student of mine was forever changed when she attended a concert in Las Vegas where a shooter killed fifty eight people and wounded even more. She still has flashbacks of lying on the ground in a pool of blood while hearing the rat a tat tat tat of bullets. An horrific massacre took place in an elementary school in Uvalde, a place through which we have pulled our trailer on our way to a state park. Most recently my granddaughter was in lockdown for days after a gunman killed sixteen people in a bowling alley only nineteen miles from her college. It feels as though the inevitability of being a victim or knowing a victim is moving closer and closer while we keep turning our backs on the problem after a brief interlude of concern. 

I do not believe that the second amendment was meant to spawn arsenals in the homes of citizens. I cannot imagine that the men who wrote and ratified that addition to our Constitution ever imagined the kind of weapons and bullets that are so easy to purchase in today’s America. I suspect that they would be as horrified as I am that their words have been so distorted that even children are posed with weapons in their hands by parents who seem to think it is cute and patriotic to assert the right to arms with armed family photos. 

I find it vile and alarming to fetishize guns and conflate them with freedom. The message we are sending our children borders on abuse. They are crouching inside schools to practice for potential danger. They are talking with their teachers about what to do if a mass shooter comes to their school. We are spending valuable time and resources installing doors and gates and alarms because we don’t have the courage to actually stop the madness of flooding our homes and our streets with more and more guns. 

The greatest gift we might give ourselves and our children this holiday season is the acknowledgement that it is past time to come together to pass control measures that will work. Other countries have mentally ill people like we do, but they have also legislated mandatory buybacks of the most egregious guns. They stopped the madness while we kept turning our backs on what we know we must do. If we don’t speak out and push for change it will happen again and again. Our thoughts and prayers will sound hollow. Our silence will be lethal. If we love our children we will begin the process of change.